Thanks for your replies everyone,
Rusty i thought i was going loopy untill i read you post... thanks how its is, this is actually whats been going on.
[quote]Looking back over the past nearly two years I see an enormous change in myself. I am less patient with weakness. I don't want to be around negativity. Life is just too short...and I think that is what I have learned...how much time I wasted. What that means is that I have gradually narrowed down the people that I deal with. I used to think this was wrong[/quote]
Lady, thats exactly how it feals....
[quote]I too have often thought of going back to the easy way of life. Where my emotions were not so exposed, where I really didn't care what others did, and where I sat on the deck in peace and tranquility just smoking my life away.[/quote]
It's good to know that i'm not the only one who has gone or going through this.
Yes, my life is very busy at the moment - both at work & home. This is a good thing as i enjoy the challanges & have made some amazing life changing decisions since i've quit, real big ones. As an ex-smoker, sorry non-smoker, i have amazing stamina & can't belive the strength i've obtained both mentally & physically but...
It is unfortunate that at home there are certain individuals that i have no choice in being around. It's this that appears to be getting to me & yes these people are 'in your face' staunch smokers.
i can deal with the work thing no problem as i have been avoiding the 'less gifted' co-workers so i can 'get on with it', it's the home thing i need to come to terms with.
I see that there smoking is hindering there judgement in particulat they appear confused, indecisive & easily stressed & this just gets me angry. i know i can't force people to stop smoking but when you see how it effects them in such a way that it's honesty killing them from the inside out, what do you do ? believe me when i say there is no way in getting these people to stop smoking !.
I don't want to smoke & honestly speaking, a councillor probably wouldn't go amiss but I know now that this is just another test from above, fighting my inner demons you could say. I need to deal with this but it's a biggie so it's gonna take a lot of comprimise on my part.
As some of you may
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