moss
I understand. I know it is hard to isolate the feelings that are just behind the urge to smoke. But in order to quit I had to flip those coins over. I know that I self-medicated for years. The question is why? Well I may never get a full explanation of that. It might be just a bit too scary to go crawling around in my personal netherworld. Besides, I do think that there is a time to be intraspective and a time to be outward looking. I enjoy both states of being, but I know that if I engage in the later, I had best have done enough of the former.
I do know that my smoking was based on a pattern of behavour that I had developed over many years. It began in my late teens and really took hold in my 20s. For the most part I used cigarettes to stave off unwanted feelings. However, since I have been quit, I have developed new ways of dealing with those things.
One thing I did that was helpful was I began going to a substance abuse therapist when I first quit. He and I still have sessions every other week, and I have found our conversations to be instructive.
In any case, hang in there, I know its difficult, but do what ever you must to stay quit. It is worth any effort...
nonic
[B]My Milage:[/B]
[B]My Quit Date: [/B]12/25/2006
[B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 465
[B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 13,950
[B]Amount Saved:[/B] $4,882.50
[B]Life Gained:[/B]
[B]Days:[/B] 86 [B]Hrs:[/B] 18 [B]Mins:[/B] 44 [B]Seconds:[/B] 19
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Quit Meter
$75,211.50
Amount Saved
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Quit Meter
Days: 1565
Hours: 11
Minutes: 45
Seconds: 30
Life Gained
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7163
Smoke Free Days
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Quit Meter
214,890
Cigarettes Not Smoked
